needing reassurance

So you know that really awkward feeling when you ask someone out and you know with 100% certainty that they're going to say no but you have to ask because you've been pressured by your friends and they're expecting you to do this?

Doorknocking is a little bit like that. Going up to people, confronting them and telling them you want to use their lawn for a sign, or you want them to use this six-times-in-two-years opportunity to vote for you. It's awkward. It's disappointing. And rejection fucking hurts.

I don't know why I'm in this business.

In other news, I want to sing love songs to someone. Nobody in particular, but I need someone to whom I can sing these songs. I wouldn't mind a hug either.